The reason is simple.
"I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."
I often times ask myself, “Alisha, why are you doing this?”, “Alisha, why are you putting so much time and effort into this?”, “Alisha, why do you continue when you see little change?”. I become frustrated as I think about those that want me to see the folly that they do in my actions. I become sad when I think about those who don’t believe that this is my purpose. But the main thing that disgusts me is when I think about all these things and all these people, and allow the negativity to cloud my mind and affect my soul to the point I come to the brink of giving up. But at that moment, when I am at the brink and ready to give up, I remember who called me. I remember that it wasn’t me, myself, who put this task before me, but it was my Lord. It is when I am at the brink that I realize I can’t see myself doing anything else but what God has called me to do. It is at the brink that God comes to me and gives me more motivation and empowerment to keep on going. It is at the brink where God gives me more land, more road to push on in the call that He has on my life.
I choose to go on because I know that I am walking in my purpose. My purpose is a tough one and it is not for the faint hearted. To do what God is asking of me requires Him to give me new strength every day, and at certain times every moment. The way things are right now, I always ask God, “what is the point?”, and He instructs me to actively wait. I must do what He is asking of me even though right now it doesn’t look like it’s having any affect. But I know and I believe that one day it will have an effect, whether I am here to see it or not.
I look at this time I am in, and I begin to notice how it is strengthening my faith and trust in God. I begin to understand that I am literally believing God to do the impossible in and with my life. I’ve never been in a place like this before with God, not at this magnitude. It excites me and it keeps me watching to see what God is going to do because honestly, what He is having me to do can change and expand at any given moment. And in that moment when God finally says it is time for His purpose to reach the masses, I will be in such amazement, in such awe. I am going to praise Him because I stuck it out with Him, and I am going to worship Him because I know it was by no doing of my own, it is all Him.
So, I choose to continue because He trusted me with this task. I choose to continue because He said this is my purpose. I choose to continue because He said my mission is to impact this world with His Love. I choose to continue because there are souls that need to feel the Love of God or need a new refreshing. I choose to continue because there are people looking for an answer from God. I choose to continue because everyone must know the truth. I choose to continue because there is too much hurt, brokenness, and evil in this world. I choose to continue, my friends, because Jesus continued even when He knew His fate.
I will continue until His purpose for my life is complete. I choose God over the unknown, always.